scrumpets and things.

i've always said that lurking deep inside of my being lies a rotund little china man that can scarf down along side the best of 'em. God, i love to eat. y'know when you're depressed, you either eat or you starve yourself. i eat.

needless to say, my favorite holiday is none other than Thanksgiving. really, its not the eating mainly as much as it is the company of my most precious loved ones. i love my family and am blessed [so blessed] to be surrounded by the most gracious caring wonderfully creative bunch of sillies anyone would ever have the pleasure of knowing. and they're all mine. [lucky gal, i tell ya.] we all sit around the tables at my Ma's [lately the table has been growing larger and larger, which i couldnt be happier about] while stuffing our faces with some of thee most savory dishes, and we'll never let a Thanksgiving pass without letting each and every person know how much they mean to us and how they have touched us so. i think thats what i love the most. we're growing, aging, and things change on a day to day basis in life, but we always have that to go back to and look forward to. and i treasure it so.

this year [as i have said time and again] has been the best year of my life. there has been so much bullshit and self-loathing that i have overcome, i have this new outlook and am actually excited about where my life is headed. its something i have created on my own and there really has never been a feeling like it in my life. for that i am truly grateful.

i thought carefully about the dish i wanted to bring to my mom's. afterall, this is my first vegetarian Thanksgiving- so i have to make it count. fuck a salad. it needed to take on a life of its own and show my family [those little carnivores] that this isnt some fad for me, rather a separate chapter in this new book i am writing. an important one. i dont need them to become vegetarians, just want them to know that because i am not eating meat doesnt mean i am depriving myself. there are so many options out there, its really about keeping an open mind.

and i came across this

Roasted Vegetable Cornucopias with Gravy

couldnt you just die? its going to be spectacular and the pinnacle of a truly special year. im going to show them really what i am all about these days. and they are going to love it. and i cant wait.