Thursday, October 29, 2009

that deaf, dumb and blind kid sure plays a mean pinball..



in the know?
i remember first stumbling across this movie as a child. maybe on a day i faked sick. maybe during summer vacay. point being, this movie really did have that sort of impact on me that pretty much changed my thinking. suddenly, things i thought made sense, didnt. suddenly, there was this whole new world i never knew existed. it was powerful. i didnt know what it meant at the time, what the message was they were trying to convey, but i was intrigued and couldnt look away. so i watched the whole thing, and it turned me on. something about roger daltry's tight ass jeans called out to me and challenged my youth. he dared me to look away. i still couldnt. he knew i couldnt.

tuesday night was the first game of the season for the Lakers. watched it at Brosie's, got blunted, we beat the Clippers [as if you needed a recap on that.] once the game ended, Brosie was flippin through the channels and stumbled across none other than... my Tommy. surprising as all hell, he had never seen it. He Had Never Witnessed That Which Is Tommy. whoa. i was shocked.
then his gf Jesse comes into the room and she had the same reaction i did; "yyyyeeeeeeeeeeeah, its Tommy!" "Ohhhhhhhhhhh Yeaaaaaaaaaahhhhh," i replied. and we went on to compare stories of how when we first came across this rock-u-mentary [if you would] how it made us go; hmmmmm and gave us that tickly feeling down there. she got it. she got me. another thing we had in common other than our names and love for my Brosie.
it was nearing the end, when Tommy's followers go ape-shit and start fucking everything up. then they kill his ma, and his step-dad [or whoever that dude's 'posed to be.] jess and i laughed at that fact; "this is where it starts to get really weird" we said, almost in unison. and my brother had no choice but to leave it on as we sat mesmerized, giggling like school girls at the blond-haired, blue-eyed shirtless angel in them jeans.
theres not really adequate words to describe the feeling that came next. but it was sheer bliss. i was suddenly taken back to that time, where the world held so much promise, when i liked the idea of boys but didnt know what to do with them when i'd get them, the time of being afraid of the dark, the time when my biggest worry was what to wear to summer camp. bliss, i tell you. those were some good times. there were bad times, but those times i dont really focus on unless there is something specific i am thinking. those were some good times.

and i smiled. and punched my brother for not watching that movie sooner.

do yourselves a favor and check it if you havent already. there is a star-studded cast, the score is great [personally in my opinion, rock stars dont exist these days] and fucken Tina with that booty bouncing.. and those legs. oh my, those legs. get it girl. i miss keith moon too. rock stars.

the above vid is from the scene where Tommy experiences LSD. i remember my first acid trip, and yeah- it was something like that. imagine you have tina turner's ass shakin around in your head with those tunes in the background and you'd have a smile on your face the same as Tommy did. Roger Daltry's still got it by the way.

Wednesday, October 28, 2009

no soup for you

i am all about doing your own thing. i dont think you have to call me everyday to consider you a good friend. we are grown, we have our own identities and lives and i love you for that. but when you fucking call me only on the occasion that you want to borrow something, i have to warn you are dangerously close to being cut. especially when you dont even take care of your own shit.

the answer is no. and my clearing your calls should have been the most important clue.

and all i have to do is think of her.

good lord, its this weather. i love this weather. dusting off my box of goodies; pulling out my granny socks and sweaters, thinking of baking on a daily. what should i bake? something cozy. something that brings a smile to your face when you think of someone you love biting into a nice warm treat. theres nothing like feeding a man, watching him devour your goodness. theres not many joys out there quite like it. or maybe im just biased. another joy of being a woman; playing house.

i stumbled across this little gem; Dark Chocolate Clusters from the ever-reliable Vegetarian Times website. HOLY! although i will be modifying this a bit [something about a raisin doesnt equate a treat to me,] these will be my motherfucking pearlllssss. [fingers crossed, lovelies.] i cant effing wait! maybe i can invite some of the girls as well. although we all know that if it aint a room full of cock, liquor and annoying bass-in-yo-face, they probably wont show. but maybe i can lure them in with some weed. and then i will play my old jazz records and we can giggle about boys and the old days sitting on the glassell park stairs wondering when we'd be "grown." sooner than we thought, was the answer to that longing enigma.

anyway, this is my favorite time of year, with Thanksgiving being my favorite holiday and fall being my favorite season. weird that i was born in February wasnt it? story of my life, always finding myself at the right place with the worst timing. i love watching the leaves die and then fall to the ground. i've often kept them locked away in a box of my most precious mementos, only to stumble across them at a later time and smile at what once was. some people save dead flowers [i do that too] but the leaves are mine especially.

Friday, October 23, 2009

It's Friday, Im In Love.

i've got my inspiration back and im chasing butterflies.

*footer: i am going to be mia wallace or margot tenenbaum next year. the gods have spoken.

Thursday, October 22, 2009

give me liberty, or give me death.

..ok, well maybe fashion isn't that serious, but i LOVE it nonetheless.
it's a woman's prerogative to wear what she wants, thats the beauty in this day and age.
we are what we wear? not so true today.
fuck me, if i cant spend an entire paycheck on a pair of shoes! or a purse! i dare you to try and stop me.
it may seem completely unnecessary to you and maybe a little frivolous to do such a thing, but what'd you think i come to work everyday for? not that thats what i do on a daily, but if i saw something that jumped out at me, im not going to let a little thing like not eating for a couple weeks get in my way of finding my bliss. [maybe not that extreme, but you get me.]

those shoes. that jacket. the gloves. that mask. tres chic. im biting my fist right now ya heard.

i love being able to dress reflecting my mood of the moment.
yesterday it was a grandpa sweater, jeans and my shit-kicking boots. the day before i was feeling sweet in my earth-tones. today i am feeling the early Beatles in a plain white t-shirt under a black blazer and over some leggings. friday's, people usually dress down here in the office although a full on "jean-day" is frowned upon. for the most part on friday's i like to dress it up, keep people on their toes y'know. so we'll really have to roll the dice on that one and see what we come up with.

point is: i LOVE being a woman. sure, shit may get touchy for a week [or two, i aint fronting] every month but the pay off is well worth the uncomfortable bloat. thats why i have flowy dresses mmmmmkay?! and considering the other option, sure they may say; Men Rule The World but when i think of all the shit that comes along with running shit, i'll gladly decline. think about it; you never hear "Men and children first." no one gives a fuck about replacing the D if the other choice is a fly ass fox. sad story but a true story. so you can take you higher paychecks, and whatever other perks you may have and i will put on my sexiest lingerie under a tight ass mini-dress and strut. just because i can.

...but the waiting makes me curious.

take me here, and i am yours for life.

...still you dont regret a single day.


this song just does things to me.

UNSEXY UPDATE:
that is what happens when you dont check your homework. originally, i had posted the wrong vid. im not that obvious. and yes, i prefer this live version.